I didn’t make it to today’s Seminar 4 due tu health problem.  I am suffering from bad cough since few days ago. I am still coughing madly when I am writing this, wishing that I can pull out my lung, put it a side until it recovers. I feel something hairy and sticky in my lung. Afraid to see what it looks like I rather wait and hope it will be okay as soon as possible. Another cough and I feel like my chest wants to explode.  Cough syrup doesn’t help anymore. I didn’t feel sleepy after taking a spoon of it or maybe not even if I drink the whole bottle. I haven’t count how many sore throat chewing pills I took since I went to the clinic even though I am allowed to take 2 per day. Who cares because all I want is this disease gone immediately. I can’t remember when was the last time I fall sick. Once it comes it will gonna be really bad.

Actually, I am not just only physically ill, also mentally. I believe the cause of this sick is because I always sleep late lately doing my assignments. One of the subject is quite tough. Another needs a lot of efforts and works. Plus short of money distracts my focus on the job. Can you believe that we haven’t been paid for February yet? *sigh

These are priority need to be done
1. Assignment Organizational Communication (this week)
2. Assignment Educational CD (2 weeks more)
3. Examination (end of April)
4. Balik Kampong (May)
5. Joh hunt!

tido hampir jam 3 pagi
bangun seawal 7 pagi
dengan malas alihkan kete manual farah
shit.. tak masuk gear
bebudak depan rumah gelak? lantakla
dah lambat gi kelas

jalan raya agak lengang
merempit
jam 8 40 sampai kelas
kedatangan 5 orang jek

bla bla bla
abis kelas lepak library
surf sana sini masuk facebook
gi lunch
masuk library balik
borong 2 ketul buku
hantar buku lam kete

kelas kol 330
kedatangan 3 orang
diskas asemen
kol 645 ptg kuar kelas
merempit balik

singgah maybank kuarkan duit
masukkan dalam maybank
security tgh masukkan duit
agak lama tunggu

kol 8 malam singgah jusco jap
ramai manusia
parking susah
bijak gi kaurkan balek duit bank in tadi
beli barang dapo
dekat kol 9 sampai umah

pass mc letter elma kat den
kemas dapo sket, buang sampah
mandi tuka baju
cuci baju sambil masak megi
makan sambil tengok tv
sambil gulung popia sambil basuh baju
sambil tgk tv sambil jemur baju
letey.. tulis blog
pengsan

I was surprised with the my last semester result. Alhamdulillah.. but still can’t believe it. I got A for both subjects. Heee.. Congratulations to myself I was able to maintain the grades.

New semester starts soon. No more holiday mood for the moment.

I am crazy to consider an offer by a friend to teach web development and courseware at UPSI as part time. What now? working, studying and teaching? I am crazy, yes. Maybe I should ask friends opinion about this.

Well.. my 2008 missions only one has been launched which is pursuing master at OUM. These are more to be archived this year

i really don’t know if i did well in my exam last weekend.. everything seems not to be as what i expected.. it was a very last minute preparation and i am very upset with myself.. *sigh

on the first day of the examination i was 20 minutes late.. i arrived early at the learning centre but i forgot to bring the examination slip.. without it i wouldn’t be able to sit for the paper.. *arghh.. i drive back home immediately to get it and doesn’t get a chance to read the note for the last time.. i fully utilized the time given and answer as much as i can even i know it was wrong.. uwaa.. same goes with the it policy paper.. i was upset too.. i hope my assignment marks will help me to get at least a B.. huhu..

next semester will be starting at the end of January.. i was thinking to register only two subjects.. actually i can register three but i don’t think i can handle three subject in one semester.. plus.. two of them are reading subject which i am very poor at.. but i want to finish my master on time.. at the same time i want to maintain my pointer.. arr.. i think two should be fine then..

after communication law paper last saturday i decided to straight away go to the perodua service centre at balakong.. it was still early and i head back home after bought myself prosperity burger.. huwaa so expensive.. one set is RM13.90, i think last year it was RM10-11.. ermm.. i just bought the burger for RM8.88 and a fries total up RM13++.. arr.. baik aku beli set jek!

10 past 2 pm i went out again to the service centre.. it was jam at chinese town and i arrived there at almost 3 pm! i missed my appointment at 2.30 and lucky they still accept my car.. another RM107 gone into thin air.. (last week RM350 for two new tyres.. huhu).. i went home.. sleep.. and continue study for the next day paper.. i was early

on sunday morning and took a few last minutes time left before 9 am to read through all chapters.. huhu.. when i read the question, it was all from past year exam paper.. whoaa.. i did check it but can’t remember the answer.. i went out 10 minutes early and head back home immediately.. change my cloth and drive to semenyih.. meet reza on the way.. the food was awesome and syikin’s sister look gorgeous in her wedding dress..

another RM120 fly away when my cpu’s power supply went dead.. the guy who fixed my cpu said the motherboard is high end and need to be support with more power.. i say yes to RM190 new power supply.. waaa.. i am totally broke this month.. please send me more money!

Alhamdulillah.. last week was the last classes for this semester. I will be taking the final examination on the 20th and 21st of December. Glad my paper is not on weekdays so I don’t have to apply any leave. But I might take one for study revision if I am not prepare enough to answer the exams.  Friday maybe. Haha. Wish me luck for 2 papers which cost me to read and memorize the act and fact. Wohoo..

Right now I was thinking to stay another one more year here. Or maybe after I graduate my master which is in early 2010? Erm.. at the meantime that is what I planned. Who knows what will happen next year. Erm..

Semester 1 dah selamat dilalui dengan indah. Indah ke? Semester 2 sedang berjalan. Ingatkan nak rest satu semester and sambung balik, tapi kang bile nak abis pulak kan? I thought Semester 2 begins after Raya, but the first seminar was on Ramadhan and I almost tak dapat hadir, nasib baik tukar tarikh.

Sem ni dapat amek 2 subject je which is about law and policies. Huhu! Communication Law and IT Communication and Policies Development. Kenelah banyak membaca dan membuat research dan juga menulis dengan fakta, bukan auta yeh.

Communication Law
Lecturernyer agak bes dan seorang perempuan. Dia ni mengajar tak guna slide powerpoint. Pakai buku text nipis sebijik dan sangat hebat mengingat segala jenis undang-undang.

IT Communication and Policies Development
Lecturer part time ni first time mengajar dan sian die ade 2 orang anak murid yang pasif je. Mula-mula ingatkan subject ni pasal undang-undang dan akta jugak, tapik sebenarnyer adalah usaha kerajaan untuk pembangunan IT di Malaysia. Nama jek belajar kat MMU dan keje kat Cyberjaya. Huhu!

Oh yer lupe nak gtau result semester lepas which is very good. Alhamdulillah. 2 subject dapat B dan satu lagi A+. Pointer 3.44. Haruslah berusaha kekalkan prestasi. Good luck for Sem 2.

Weekends went away too fast. Tomorrow will be Monday, the day people hate most including me. There will be weekly meeting on Monday and I am the one who wil be incharge on the floor since the coordinator went outstation for another 2 more weeks. *sigh. Tomorrow will be a stressful day since both manager take a half day leave until Tuesday for a vacation. That leaves me with the rest of the floor to be monitored. *sigh again. I had never imagined to lead a group of people. I want to design and be creative. This career conflicts happens to anybody where you are not ready for a promotion or a responsible because there’s no other people can do the job and lucky you have this a bit of talent. It is actually good for you career building but you will have to suffer when you will have to struggle to meet what they expect you can do. Why me? I had enough this mind playing game that torturing me for the past few weeks. Nobody will understand it. Me neither. Why don’t we just forget about it and lets just face it when it comes.

Maybe I am having this quarter life crisis things. The symptoms are match with what I feel right now. There’s sometimes I felt I really don’t know what I want in my career. What I want to be and what I am looking for. The future seems blurry and unpredictable. I am 26 now and by this time I should be settle down somewhere with someone and something. To think positive I always believe that one day Allah will give it to me. It is just a matter of time and I am being test.

Last time I felt so bored that I want to do something so that I will not look like a loser. I continue my study in master degree now and had just finish my first semester. Next semester will be in a few weeks time so I have a few weeks to rest before sleepless nights will be my routine again. Continuing study doesn’t really make my boring go away. There’s something missing in my life that I should have it by now. Love? I had enough love from family and friends. Companionship? Maybe. Relationship? Ermm..

After a few months, I realized that I have to do something to myself to gain my confidence and courage. I hope this will works and wish me good luck for it. 2 missions in a year should be enough. Trying not to be too ambitious, I should pray for my consistency and discipline towards both missions.

It is raining since last few days. I had a plan cancelled yesterday and was at home until Sunday ends. It was cold and I felt sleepy that most of the time I slept and sat on my bed while watching movies on my computer, besides doing laundry and house cleaning, Yet I felt my weekends went away too fast and I need a few more day to rest. Oh I need a vacation. I month to go to be back home. Just be patient.

15 August 2008 (0900-1210))
Multimedia Technology
Well prepared I guess. Most of the questions are in the LMS forum plus some are from the previous exam papers. I am lucky I read most of the questions and did well on the exam. I hope so. Went out 30 minutes early and happy about it and happy about the assignments. Lets hope an A for it.

16 August 2008 (0900-1210)
Fundamental of ICT
Not well prepared. I read almost all the chapters and also the past exam papers. LMS forum doesn’t help much. So I guess I am not doing well in the exam but I answer all the questions with my logic answers. Went out 15 minutes early and not very happy about it.

17 August 2008 (1400-1710)
Fundamental of Communication
Also not well prepared. I read all the chapters but seems like it is hard to remember those terms and theories of communication. I use all the time given and not so happy about it.

Overall, it was ok then. I answered all the questions and didn’t leave it blank. I’ll do it better next semester.